iPod Intelligence

A few weeks ago, Jason and I were dragging around on a Saturday afternoon. You know that middle part of the day when all of a sudden you feel like you can’t go on without a nap? We know from past experiences that these Saturday naps can easily turn into a 2 hour event and we had things we wanted to accomplish, so we decided to push through until the tiredness was gone. I tried to tackle some housework, starting with the kitchen. Jason hooked up the iPod to the speakers and put our 4,866 songs on shuffle. He turned it up loud and we got to work. The first song it chose was a song by Katy Hudson, a talented young singer, songwriter whose first and only album I adore. Unfortunately she hasn’t been heard from since and her web page has vanished. ANYWAY, the song is called “My Own Monster “ The chorus says:

“Hold me close, for I’m so tired of holding myself

So very tired, I’m tired, tired, I’m tired just hold me.”

Over and over she sang “tired, tired, I’m so tired.” I told Jason “This song is NOT waking me up, let’s skip it.” Jason skipped to the next song and the iPod randomly chose a song called “Wake Up” by Grammatrain. We cracked up! We also stayed awake and got a lot done.

We're All So Special!

At work I ran across some quizzes the kids filled out. The quiz was mostly about drugs and drinking and why you shouldn’t do these things. The end of the quiz asked the child to list five reasons why they were special.

Most of the kids wrote things like:

“I’m special because I don’t do drugs.”

“I’m special because I don’t drink.”

One cute kid put:

“I’m special because my Mom loves me.”

But my favorite one was this:

“I’m special because I don’t capture people.”

Happy, Happy, Joy, Joy

That's it! I'm so sick of all the negativity on my blog. We need some happy stories. Believe it or not, I'm a happy girl sometimes. I write the most when I'm down because it is healing. I will continue to write about that stuff but while I'm out of the depression fog, I need to celebrate the good things in life. Actually I should do the same when I'm depressed.

I continue to work on my new attitude. I finished the book Get Out of That Pit and then started a small group with a friend so I could study it again. We are 2 chapters in and already the group is getting close and personal with meaningful discussions. I forgot how much a women's small group can enrich my life. Women need each other. God designed us to help bear one anothers burdens. The best part is being able to share your heart and hearing others pray for you out loud. It is also a blessing to return the favor.

My new job is going great. I've been there since Memorial Day and I truly enjoy going to work. I enjoyed my previous job on location with the kids but even though I don't see their beautiful faces I know the work I'm doing supports them. Everyone has been so kind and welcoming to me. I'm still intimidated and a little nervous around the President, CEO lady but I think as long as I don't piss her off I'll be o.k. I was afraid of my supervisor but it turns out his big, gruff demeanor is nothing but a cover for a soft teddy bear man. It seems silly now that I was so afraid to work full time and be busy all day. Wow, I was trapped in some serious lies that made me think I was disabled. At the end of the work day, I'm a little worn out but I feel productive and somewhat satisfied. I know it's still early to declare victory but I am filled with hope and maybe even confidence that this was a positive life change.

I have 4 or 5 ideas for positive stories so check back. I have good intentions of getting them done in a timely fashion. Thanks, as always, for checking in and giving a crap. I love you too.